dilemmable

I can't let you go 

But it's worse than that. 
I don't want to let
you go. 
In fact, there's no reason 

I should

want to go
and do 
that. 

I am paralyzed by 
how banal and pat 
and sensible my
unwillingness 

is. Given how much 
I don't even want 
to not want this. 

So I guess 
I will just 

shift gears and trust 
my business mind 
to mind its biz.