coursers

I hate it when I love it when that happens.
And I love it when I hate it that it won't.
I'm never going to know what I want most of all,
but I'd never lie and tell you I don't.
And whichever possibility seems farther out
right now,
I know I can't expect the future to hold

to whatever courses I expect to pull myself
towards.
Another pair of hands on the reins
has equal force,

and in any given moment,
so much less doubt.