sublimation maybe

there are certain numbers of fantasies
I am not prepared to divulge to you
and none of them are even sexual
believe that, babe?
I believe it, too

the one where I am in a band
and playing some disgusting joint
where you show up, with all your friends
and you don't recognize me, no
until that point -

I play that song
you said you loved
"this is beautiful"
"this is a song you make love to"
then
your eyes get wide,
and lips get full,

Or

my pants keep fucking falling off!
right up on stage!
the effort costs
me some dignity,
to haul things up.

It's a legal concern - the show's "all age"!
and the show was free

There's a certain number of fantasies
that I'm not prepared to divulge to you
and none of them are really sexual
well okay maybe, one
or two