but aren't they all random?
Thursday, June 30, 2022
my phantom beard
I stroke on flail
and grasp and miss,
long habits will
prevail. Despite
my clean-cut
chin
in mocking
taunt above what
long has been
Wednesday, June 29, 2022
happiness project
Happiness is a retrofit
we install just in case
the earthquake hit
if it didn't or did -
it might again.
So you can't really say
why whether or when,
just get your shit up
to spec, better yet
pretend
This is all in mind,
right?
Send
Tuesday, June 28, 2022
random dancer
Her limbs are like knives on balance and slice
on pivot and spin as gravity dies
and comes back to life between beats and on pause.
So graceful a win, without effort or cost, just cause.
Saturday, June 25, 2022
cheap lesson
"You inspirational piece of shit!" she hissed,
eyes blazing narrow slits. "How dare you
compliment my taste, and then show yours
so desolate!" I said "Uh, wait, uh what? How's
this?" She smacked my face, deserving it.
It's how I learned you might get smacked.
In fact, I did!
No turning back
Close enough
on her own pitch and transitioned to criminal
influencer, remaking fashion and behavioral
trends in prisons and extralegal organizations
and clubs, worldwide and nation tall. Soon
the authorities wanted to cut her a sweetheart
deal: full amnesty (nothing she'd done had
been technically illegal) in exchange for
influencing criminals to be more badass
and cool, only in prosocial ways. She said
"Hey what the hell, I've always marched
to a drumbeat of some kind" and signed on.
The experiment won her the Nobel Prize
in Economics, because the committee
was like "fuck it. Close enough"
People learn to make way for a trailblazer,
don't they. Oh yes more or less, and she
went down as one of the best - but she did
go down, in the end. We all do, but as she
might have said you can't let it stop you.
situations
As always with everything,
we're doing our best to investigate
what situations are,
and what kinds of things
can happen in them.
This situation is grave, and we honor
the concern and criticism expressed
all around. However we assure all
concerned that first, we have
to determine what situations are.
Only then, responsibly we can figure
this out, using whatever happened plus
as many ideas as we can responsibly
come up with because it is a very grave
situation, as we've admitted. What are they?
We can't act rash yet. It would be premature,
so cool off please. Back down. Once we're
sure what a situation actually is, we guarantee
all concerned: action will be rash as you could
ask.
Guided by a fuller understanding, together
we can't lose, so cool it. You did your part,
all of you bringing this to a crisis, and that's
the most important part you can do. Now.
Leave it to us. Back off, cool down, grow up.
This is already a situation, and we don't need
another one. What are they?
wonderknot
Her brain is baking wonder pies
beneath a sword of Damocles
that life suspends
on thread of dread
above us each, on mother's knees.
But as we grow invulnerable
and wise, we don't much notice it.
It's theme and trope of tolling bells
in books.
Its sense
goes somewhere else to fit.
That thread
is plaything, now. We spin
and play and spool it out
like Gordians, we prize our knot.
No effort mindful or forgot
could undo all these tight-pulled
strands. No mind's-eye gaze could scry
this plan. No mind's-hand fingers
trace its ways.
Insoluble, the puzzle stays.
Until the days we lift our eyes, and there
suspended, spy the sword. It's hung up
still.
It looms and looms.
We've woven for it some reward
Monday, June 20, 2022
metamorphosis bug
It's time for the bug
up your ass to die
and be reborn as a butterfly,
aflutter in tummy and rising
like heart in throat
to your mouth,
where you puke
pure hope.
Sunday, June 19, 2022
great time on stage
Sometimes you can just tell
they're having a great time up there,
onstage
it's not faked. You can't
fake strutting and bopping around
like that, yelling "ooo! ooo!" and
doing this sort of - anti-choreography!
Everyone's got their own dance going,
but
you figure they planned it. It smacks
of something planned, and maybe
actually rehearsed - or run through
a time or two, perhaps not identically.
It smacks
of artificiality,
but they're really
getting into it. You
know?
They're having a ball, a blast
up there
and we
uh
paid
to see this shit.
But that's okay. It's joyous
affirmation of some kind
of human confidence
job
and if we didn't come to see
that? Well, we certainly came
to see this
Saturday, June 18, 2022
standing permissions
If my baby had a hat
I would tell her "I allow you
to wear it!" Or
if she had an outfit on,
I would say - so there
would be no doubt - "I give you
permission to be clothed!"
Or if
she were drawing
regular breaths, I
would say
"By all means,
breathe normally.
I allow it." Or if she
wanted to do some thing
she could do all by herself,
without my permission,
I would give her my permission.
Because
I respect my baby, and
I honor her autonomy. I allow
her
big time
Friday, June 17, 2022
in translation
Your look is
so eloquent
that I have
to narrate
all the notes
glimmering in
glint and shimmer
from your gaze, tuned
by corner twist of the mouth,
narrowed or widened eyes,
raised brow, and turn
of head
- I put
your look
into words
for you.
Well, for both of us.
In continuous narrative flow,
as you keep that look coming.
As you, with an index finger
straight-up, indicate one point
- or you curl it down,
take one point off,
you keep score
while I narrate.
Putting your look
into words galore
Most of them true,
some false, some off,
you course-correct me
to sure. It's a little
improv routine
we do. It happened
more or less on
purpose
pure
Wednesday, June 15, 2022
heart visit
I visit you in my heart,
but you're not there.
Empty chambers,
calling out - no
answer!
Whoops - I overshot
the mark. This isn't
my heart, it is yours!
You're probably out!
In my heart? Yes
We passed each other
on the way. We really
should call first.
Coordinate.
It's such a chore
Tuesday, June 14, 2022
foot taller
I feel a foot taller
I know I'm not
It's psychological, but
I feel like I've grown,
and maybe the world can see!
Or you can. That would be
enough, because your eyes
are the world's
to me
Saturday, June 11, 2022
Listen. If
Listen. If people want
to understand me then
they're just going to have to
figure me out. I am sick of
shooting straight sense at
swirly targets of others' minds
only to come up bupkis on the
comprehension tip! I can not
be any more clear than I once
was! and if that's
not
good
enough,
then I will never give up no
never
give up. People are just
going to have to judge
best they can, and
figure me out for themselves if.
If
people want to understand me,
but. You know. They don't
have to want to.
I did my part
body dancing fail
he was a body dancer
his family
couldn't even.
That's how so many fail
when those they love,
his friends shook their heads,
they didn't get it, lovers
turned their heads
when he danced.
When he danced,
all the world
moved
when he danced,
from his perspective.
He rocked a balance pivot
and shuffled apace, throwing
shapes - arms and back, neck
head atop and beyond torso,
upon hips and legs, knees,
suddenly bent, feet - ankles
straitened by rippling out
driving pistons thrown akimbo,
his whole body breaking
and reassembling a cadence
in a time
for a time
abstractly-related
to his human heart. It
was time. it
was
always time.
For he was a body dancer,
and so he failed.
For the world was like
"What?"
"Is that
...you mean,
you're a dancer...?"
which made him sick
he was like NO! There are body dancers
and mind dancers! I am a mind dancer!
That's how you fail. See,
he tried to be both,
too far,
and failed.
he was a both dancer. Body
& mind, and nobody wanted
that thought or motion
song or dance.
So he failed
Friday, June 10, 2022
graverising
each day
I get up from
my early grave
to misbehave.
It's really just
behavior, see?
No miss! That's
normal for ol' me.
and dig me up
from underneath
I break the ground
with groping hand
for coffee cup
I groan and shamble
towards the town
and meet your living gaze
with mine.
You ask, and
in sepulchral tone: "Triple
almond cappuccino please"
I deeply
sweetly
moan
Thursday, June 09, 2022
The Big As If
It was as if
some occult hand had reached
down from clouds across the land
to palm my heart, like
a magic trick
that you just can't teach,
unless you can.
Or else you miss
where now you see it,
now you saw. Now
you wish and kiss
and paw, lose
everything
perchance
to crawl,
perhaps
to raise.
To win it
all.
It was
as if some
occult part
unplayed as yet
by dummy luck
and handy fate
had come unstuck
by skill and art.
Panic's OK!
Impure joy
Here is the joy
you've made in me
in sudden effect
in inner array,
and cutting to groove
in tenet and core,
by new and continual
play and display
by mischief and trick
played square and pure.
By ounce and by ton, by
hook and by barb, by light
and delight and by tone
and shade. Here
is
what
rises in me,
from you: all
polarized,
alchemized gold
gone astray
and sure.
verbatimesque
when I'm nude
I understand myself better
It's not so artificial!
when I'm not nude
people say I have a beautiful body and they wanna see it
when I'm nude I can forget about everything else
sometimes
when I'm not nude I can be invisible
sometimes I can go anywhere
people can't see a thing!
I had a bad idea once
about a garbage disposal that went on
automatically whenever you put food down it
like a hand
because
it thinks it's its food!
I thought it was a good idea
until I thought about a hand
when I'm nude I think about my hands
a lot
what should I do with them?
when I'm not nude
I adjust
Wednesday, June 01, 2022
Slowdown days
Day succeeds day, and that's okay
but I wish I could slow
most of these days down.
I'm enjoying too fast,
and then they are gone.
At they end of one, yes,
I look forth to the next,
but -
- it's gone
like that. These days, they are
ours, but how much do we
get to hold each one? By flying sun,
skyful of whirling stars? I don't
want to stop time, just
make mine large
before it is done.
night census
Somebody barked
Somebody bark back
We'll have a lil' shout-yelp
holler chit chat, and
everyone in earshot
gotta chime in!
We can't see each other
from the yards we're in, and
we've got to find out
how many dogs we are.
One, to keep making sure
we're all still here, or
if anyone new comes on,
we must know!
Bring them up to speed
on how barking goes.
Two,
in case the revolution
comes,
I suppose.
Or propose - either way
we had best prepare
vigilance is the way
all good dogs know.
Sunday, May 29, 2022
keep out of hell
People who slap God across the face
in the name of human judgment
and then turn around and burn
themselves forever in hellfire
have
done fucked up
Right?
I mean
They did it without thinking,
I bet.
That
was pretty stupid, guys. Didn't
you see the sign? It said judge
yourself asshole! Go judge
in a lake! Or something.
The thing I don't understand is,
what if its a fiery lake? Man
if a lake's on fire, that's some
unnatural shit right there. I say
if God did it, God did it to be
nasty in a sense. Like maybe
just to take a place and make
the whole place nasty. Right?
What better way could you
devise? I mean lakes are
super nice otherwise,
typically. Nothing like
a big pile of water just
sitting there in a mountain
bowl, with upside-down
treetops reaching down
into its shimmering piece
of stolen sky? Hell,
if there's going to be any
lakes at all, better set 'em
on fire! Otherwise we'd
all jump in, cool off! Nice
day for it?
It's off-brand for a purpose
divine, bank on it. What purpose?
Oh, I don't know, such as: maybe
that's why a lot of us try to keep
out of hell?
Who says hell don't make no
sense! It obviously makes the
first worst sense in the world:
keep out. DON'T
GO
THERE.
Oh, but your bold-ass rationalist
free-thunk spelunking explorers
in mind all had to go there, didn't
they? Always making
fun
of
how
dumb
hell is.
Well, makes sense to me
to keep out of it!
I don't care to barge in on
arguments where burden of proof
entails a noble end of knowing, and
a lethal means to find out. I say nope,
no,
oh no that's
okay - you decide on that one!
I'll just
be over here, doot-di-doo,
minding my business
like a salvation champ
of all time, grieving,
praying for the damned
on the sly (probably not
supposed to, but - who's
it hurt?). Thoughts and
prayers, all my peeps
in hell. What the hell,
though. Yeah,
something about that whole
place smells wrong. It's
the brimstone.
Maybe.
the moon killers
the moon killers practice
at their lunacidal craft,
recruited up from infancy
and trained not to laugh
by instinct education as
the moon creeps full,
all over earth the moon
killers
wax anxietal.
Watching night by
night it grows plainer,
fuller yet: this gibbousness
won't stop increasing,
ever. 'Til we rise
one night and
do the ritual
that sends
the moon back,
back from the full
Saturday, May 28, 2022
not messing
The looks you give with your eyes
Make me wish I could smooth
and soothe your brow and brows
with fingertip kisses and tugs
of earlobes (your, mine, ours
hey, however it goes). I want
to play nose duels and chin wars.
I'd massage your cheeks 'til you
glowed from pores, then your eyes
would flash and spark! "Hey! What
the hell you doing man?" Oh
oh
my heart
Yin/Yang generally
Parts of you are soft.
The light behind your eyes.
Those places of your form and being
spike the light hard-held in mind
behind the light in mine,
so soft.
You cannot see
the point and edge
and warm hard club
in burgeoning to
bludgeoning inside
a mind grown firm
and dense in your
caress -
- by softnesses,
with such keen thought,
strong feel concealed
within you, playing out
revealed to me unstressed,
and natural.
We're such a mess!
Between us made
quite incoherent, yet we sense
a coalesce, perchance congeal.
Wethinks confess, protesting
not at all. We feel
to condescend a bit,
to find
communion
in a rush and tussle,
tousled writhe and fall,
undressed and blessed
with sweat and sharp incense
and all, to rise again - or better,
lie
and breathe
and grin, just bathe
in aftermath
aglow.
Behold! Behave! The one
made up of two! Lies here!
That legendary beast of
burden, labor, love and wings
uplifting us in songs
to sing, now sprawls
in rest and recreation's pause,
me gathering you
gathering.
Now see?? Was that
so hard but soft? OK,
it was. Now
in your voice
which turns in flip
and somersault
to catch me every time
it calls in nets of choices
I'd have always sought, and
always made if given any
choice you gave, your voice
is soft. And I
no longer breathe so hard.
What fond parade of thoughts
and prayers is playing now
behind your eyes - and I,
no fool! Behind mine, too.
And you can see as well, I
find.
It isn't hard.
It's easy, babe. But
parts of me are hard
sometimes
to take.
Sometimes
you cannot see.
But soft! But still, I sense
you know the pattern
and the path we've laid
to curve and interlocking shape
with holes of light and dark
arrayed, displayed, designed
for none to see
but you and I.
And oh, who kids! Who cares -
the world can see quite well!
They snicker, grinning giggling
- or maybe it's a scent, a smell
that clues them in.
That Yin/Yang stank.
So dark and bright
like incense notes
arising in a heady glass
of potent grapes,
so redolent of earth
and snow
Friday, May 27, 2022
how now
Well since "what's up"
is pretty dead and gone -
well, anyway. Played
out. Still running, but
wrong - no punch no
juice no jolt no
fun, I say
say
HOW NOW?
instead!
Where we meet
any hale and/or hearty
and familiar to greet!
And return "well-met!"
as the comeback! Yes!
Will it work? Ya,
you bet:
"HOW NOW?"
"Well-met!"
Slam-dunk. All set.
It's as easy as pee in the pants
of a punk! Just picture
two punks: "HOW NOW?"
"Well-met!"
And that's all they have to say!
Nobody gets stumped. No one's
"on the spot" tryna know
what's up.
But
of course "how now?"
could be
anywhat or why. So,
you do have options,
but they're optional.
Sly.
folk etymology (truth's cute sin)
All fiction needs
is a much-needed gap
made in what's not known,
so can never be
fact. Then
we fashion
to fit, and it slips,
click!
in.
Conflicting
with nothing, it's
truth's
cute
sin.
Wednesday, May 25, 2022
immaculate aim
I worry about miracles
but God knows
what God's doing,
I guess.
I know that we
could use a few, but
there are people worse
than you. And there are many
worse than me. And maybe we
will go alright. Just down
with this. With all this here.
Just what could be
Still I
would settle for
one night
of miracles,
even though, I know
you would never tolerate
such gifts. You know
how much they need
elsewhere
Aim miracles there
Aim miracles there
everylady dancing
What if every lady I ever met
and fancied a look or what
else I could get were
collected en masse
in a nude
discotheque,
grinding and twerking
and working a sweat while I hung
just suspended above the dancefloor,
in a slow-twirling airborne glass cage,
with my meat on display like a sex
zoo exhibit galore?
My hands grip
the bars - my eyes frantic, implore
someone anyone! Please get me
out of this, or
I will rage in the cage,
and the glass may break!
And - look. falling glass? That
sounds dangerous, mate. Falling me,
too! Smack! Slapping into
that crowd
of happy nude every
lady I'd rather not injure,
somehow.
Anyway, what if that? So what?
What if then?
What would I do, hotshot?
And when? And
how would I know
to go docile or rogue?
I tell you what I'd do.
I'd vogue
vogue
vogue
Tuesday, May 24, 2022
sharks for arms
The men with sharks for arms
are going dream to dream
seeking you.
They're maiming and injuring
everyone
who gets in
their way.
In these dreams,
it's real pain like
nothing you've felt
before in a dream.
In shock,
missing parts
in bites and bits, and
slipping to black from blood
loss
- only to wake up
fine! But
you can bet,
people are going
nuts on social media
all about it:
Who ARE you? Why
is the Shark-Arm Army
so bent on tracking you
down?
The Shark Armers
don't know your name of course,
but
they
sure
give a thorough description.
And it’s everywhere.
People who know
you are excited.
An atmosphere
of conspiracy
surrounds you,
but
the temptation, as
you can imagine, is
or must be
terrible.
Monday, May 23, 2022
enough with the fucking jazz age
Enough
with the fucking jazz age.
I'm sick
of these jazz age mystery
shows.
The shows
would be fine. I like
the cars,
the clothes,
the plots and detectives'
lines,
but
it's
evident
in the score:
Whoever they hired
is some kind of jazz
age nut! Their picks
- plummy croons and
jump swing tunes -
seem insufferably
coy, and smug
as fuck.
And
it pains
who must watch.
It costs shows dear.
We fight through
insulting musical cues
to get to charged twists
and drama points prized.
Just trying to keep the suspense
we'd choose alive, through
such catastrophically puerile,
insipid musical insertions,
ruining dialogue, chases,
even clues!
Here comes
some awful
jazz
excuse.
You can sense those hired
to put them in.
Behind the scenes, grinning -
in ear-to-ear leer, wickedly
ruining jazz age shows.
It's pretty nice work
if you're a hateful piece,
with terrible, snobbish taste
who loves to shove it in
everyone's face
and sneer.
Thursday, May 19, 2022
my classy friend
I stood in the kitchen shoveling
food - the last of the breakfast,
plate to maw
by forkful shove.
I'd risen abstractedly to clear
my plate when I saw
I had not cleared my plate
- how rude! It was hammed
and tomatoed eggs, and someone
had made quite a scramble of them.
To dishonor the pigs and hens
and plants, all such labors of love
was beyond my ken. So I raised it
to mouth - the obvious choice!
And shoveled delicious voraciously
in.
And thought in a flash
of my classy friend.
Look. I don't think she would
"disapprove" as such. She would
probably laugh like bells and blush
to see my pure manner and natural grace
engaged in such ways
of feeding my face, but
it probably would confirm something. And
if she'd been there, I feel I know for sure
- I probably might have had presence of mind
in greater, specific amount
to deplore.
But
maybe quite not.
Maybe not rather.
It's possible that wouldn't cross my mind,
or it's possible
I would transgress such line, since
her standards are hers, not mine, I find.
And I think this here attitude, cool and aloof
from unnatural affect and held value
is something she actually prizes, a bit!
We're examples to each, in what's
just
fit.
Wednesday, May 18, 2022
Outmainstreaming
Thing is, I've always been mainstream.
A lot of people didn't notice, 'cause I
wasn't quite type. I defiantly touted
and barged around, charging mainstream
cause, with the weight of all right, which
isn't much done! By the mainstream
laws. But the fact is, I was always more
mainstream than you. You didn't really
notice, 'cause you were aligned
but I was polarized
like a laser light burning right
through. So I pulsed so in perfect time
with that mainstream shine, I was always
just-so, and then some. And then
some people didn't notice. They thought
I was some kind underground whore
of alternative current, subversive
and such.
But I wasn't. I was main
stream core. Too much.
I'm only coming out now
to do it some more.
So notice next time! I am
way
main
stream
galore.
An Ode to U and S and A
When I talk about America
- the Land I Free by my Very
Presence in Mind - naturally
others don't know that, but
it's right there in the senses
and evidence, ideally. Anyway,
naturally I get a flag in my throat
which must unfurl on the humid
and billowing breeze of my sweet,
hard, shining words, naked as steel
and twice as pointy. I stand a patriot
to a round of ale and uncork a sort
of Nietzschean pastiche of battle
hymns to a democratic republic
idea of will, which the Neetzch
would probably declare me dead
over, from just beyond the grave,
but
I don't care! My country is the one
they call Tisovthy, in the old song
I know much by heart. I roll purple
grains in majesty for my own
mountainous amusement and
call it fair, foul, fine, and free
on all sides - as I deem each warrants
from basis on merit, and guess what?
This is what America means!
Free stuff. Cheese, of a peculiarly
undistinguished sort. Great beers,
once you get into the minors. A
huge, titillating abundance of
emphasis on sex, tits, ass,
pussy, and of course, religion
- opt-in! All of it! Rock, roll
and who knows what they've
come up with next! This!
This is what we've got to fight.
THIS is what we've got to fight for.
We must use each and all our inbounded
unalienability of human reason to identify
and critique our ideals. This way only
we stand up, speak out and march! Nobody's
fool, we! Time for a truth bomb - get in the
echo chamber if you can't stand it.
I mean, if you care you should dare. Right?
Find out about what you care about first,
probably. America is the cahoots caboose
of the world's train of thought in full-on
canoodle mode trying to woo the whole
world's mind to our way, our side, as if
Burger King had never existed. As if Pepsi
were not an option. Well, have it our way
if you like!
You're free too.
I suggestively recommend though, you
take a big ol' look-see at what you're
getting into first, 'cause it's great.
Caveat Empire
Tuesday, May 17, 2022
Straight maybe
Listen. I knew this was a chance
when I took it with half a thought
and my whole heart. And now
you know about me. What I am.
Or if you don't, it's time you did.
So
you know
you can decide what we've gotten
you into. You need to know this
about me.
I am the mack dandy.
The big pizza-eater.
The one with the thumbs.
The trouble bubble,
and when I swell it goes
out to the ionosphere,
and when I pop it's like
every cop in the world
got called and its a panic
scramble nightmare of
paperwork, filling out
reports and applications
for warrants, warranted
and not in a huge ass-covery
recovery ops binge preparatory
to the greatest red-tape bureaucracy
parade never seen.
They have to pull a hush-up
when I'm on the scene, or it's
a bad look for them. I don't
want that. I'm mild in my
aspirations, I can't help it
my effect's so outsize. When
I'm home, I'm home for business.
The whole walls and windows,
cupboards and draws setup hums
with the echoes of past business,
and guides with as-if spectral hands
the way future business is tended
to.
Basically,
I do the dirty daily-duly on duty mode,
and I don't question what I must or wanna,
'cause it's gonna happen like it had to, and
fate's big hand in the game is afoot -
but today, dearie?
You and me hold all the cards. For now
and for once, it's no business of anyone's
but the whole wide world if we stay,
hit, raise, show or fold. You knew
all this about me the moment
you first held my eyes, I thought.
But now I've got to know. Did
you? Do you now? And what
do you say?
If I'm wrong, it could be
the wrong one of us got
sucker-punched in the eyes
that day, that night, that week
those months so long ago, at
that cowboy disco hoedown
we dragged ourselves to, and
it's kinda funny neither of us
tumbled to it since, if so.
You know me.
You know what I am. Am I
problem to you? Solution?
Opportunity, challenge,
comfort, head-rest, heartstring
or just a puzzle? I
don't need to know. You
don't need to answer. Not
now, not ever, but I needed
to put this out there. To give you
this chance. You could take it now,
whenever,
or forever.
bigotry math
How can you hate
the Taiwanese? How
many them have you met?
Girl, please. There's twenty three
million of them back home, and
I bet you haven't met twenty-three,
where you roam.
Yes, sure, some roam
and settle around. Near you,
even maybe. Face to face
in a crowd, but how many
have you met yet? Truly?
So far?
Enough sample size
to fill up a bar
on a graph you plot
to declare all the rest
same beans? Good
as bad? Real hate?
Is that
the paltry, vacuous
make-believe thing hate
means?
pleased & uneasy
We feel pleased and uneasy,
unnerved to find this alien
slant in a natural mind, which
in other ways makes all sense
and fit.
So we think we might like
to acquire it
Sunday, May 15, 2022
dogs are cool
dogs are totally fucking cool
to lie down and sleep when
there's nothing to do, 'cause
they totally trust you to wake
them up! If there's anything
cool,
they'll be fresh like a pup. And
dogs have no fear of missing out.
They know that you wouldn't
just leave them behind! They
have purpose and energy, always
aligned. They know just what to
do, if you give them a sign, and
maybe train them to obey what
it means. That's just
the dog's trick! What
it is, what it
seems.