long since let

We're nothing I guess,
to each other right now.
And I can't reach out, and
I can't reach out. And I
never could! But when you
reached me -

We gave ourselves in moments
to eternity. And I gave myself
then, and I can't get out.
But mostly now I don't
think of you at all. 

It's when I do, it all comes back -
but it's always too long to erase
the fact. And I hope you're okay,
but you may have died. 

By now, how would I even know? 

I don't deserve. Just live your life.
I can't reach out. We'll live somehow
with all this long since letting go.