When I was young
I don't think I knew
how happy I was
- and I was right.
I wasn't. It's just
the collapsible lens
of time picks up
and magnifies
every idiot gleam
of fun and love
that could never
prove false. I loved
those, then, and I love
them still. Of course
I do. Meanwhile each
equally idiot glare of panic
and trouble, confusion
I couldn't see how
would turn out, or how
to get through, is lost.
Proved false. Proved
no big deal, and gone
now as if they never
were.
But of course in the living,
each moment, they were.
They bloomed all around
and into the future, I guessed,
not seeing the end of each - making
me then really and truly miserable.
When people say "I wish I knew
then what I know now," I don't think
they mean how, really, to make things
turn out. I think they just mean knowing
which things somehow all really would.
Turn out. So then if they only knew,
they could fully enjoy the half
of their idiocy that they'll cherish
and keep - the proven big deal - not
noticing or sweating so much
the half that fades unnoticed
at the time to vanished, making
the past seem sweet.
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