the pain

imagine if I had pain in me
all through, unidentifiable
pressures and spasms and shooting,
piercing, throbbing pain
pounding with every pulse and I went
to the doctor and she was like TAKE
YOUR CLOTHES OFF. ALL OF THEM and I'd be
like BUT DOC, THE PAIN and she'd be THE TESTS
ALL CAME BACK LIES! There is nothing wrong with you
EXCEPT the pain! You're FINE!

many people live this and I'm
not one of them. Don't think
for a minute I'm not gratified,
grateful and

eventually
afraid