squeeze of piss

You're like this 
squeeze of piss I had. 
Not the last, but leading up 
to it. There were some squeezes 
more, before I had to up and quit.
But you were such a special one. 
Relief had just swept in, and I 
knew then than that I was almost
done. But there was more to go,
just then. You gave me courage 
to go on. Your passing from 
my life was full. Reminding me
how bad it's been to keep myself 
uncomfortable.