chip away the cracks

I feel like I've lost 
a piece of myself 
with every memory 

drifted off who knows 
where, now. Gone
when I wasn't looking,

don't even know now 
what goes in the spaces.
Gaps left, nothing
but nothing
between 

to connect.

I wonder what if it all 
came back at once, how
much difference would it 
really make?    

Oh, I don't mean
serious impairment yet.
Just everyday glitch,
troubling in all the minor
ways I forget since I was
a boy. I know
I'm too 

young

for worse than this,
but maybe I'm not?
Just missing a few years'
worth of interstitial
material per decade, 

probably

taking pieces of me 
with it. The important 
stuff stays fixed in place 
by regular reference 
and stiff dependence, but 

I wonder sometimes
what's going missing, 
dissolving into background 
while I'm paying attention 

to more important things