salutations

Look, I won't 
apologize
for the
fact,
or whatever the fact
may become. I know
I don't know yet.
I'm ready not to know, 
and I hope you can 
understand, because 
understandably - I don't! 

This is my top speed,
though, and I make no
apologies. It's best if you 
get to know my limitations 
without me trying 
to impress 
otherwise. 

I know
I'm still
coming
to grips
with what's
almost going on,
with what you're about
to say - I leave that entirely
open, look. I'm just being
honest. I can't

even guess.
I don't prejudge
but I have this sure sense
I can't quite
in the moment get

my head
around what
hasn't happened yet. 

But I know I will.
I hope you will still 
be standing here right 
now to see it! Please

Trust me.
I will.

It's
my fault
to be out of sorts,
at odds
with all
these things
I know are beyond
me, not you. No fault
of yours. I can't

blame you
if you blame me,
but I wish you could see 

how hard it is 
in this moment. 

As you look at me, 
saying nothing yet, having 
said not anything at all, yet
- oh 
wait 

"Hi!"