Not lIke cLockwork

I can't make myself 
fall apart on command 
Can't produce a whole 
huge reaction for you; 
can't intuit when you 
really want me to,
and
you 

never ask me to. 
That's true. 

But I feel I should, 
and I feel the lack. I
want 
to be so in sympathy that 
the moment you're in, 
I can't understand. 

I'd respond 
anyway
just a touch, 
so strong.
In hand. 

but I can't 
but I wish 
I can.