that about

I can't believe or understand
a thing. What does it mean?
Should I try? Who says so, and if so
and who says how? What if I do it
wrong? Whose fault is that
for trying at all, when
I wasn't going to? When I had
to be talked into it! Doesn't
someone have to talk me into
it? Don't they at least have
to try? Why doesn't anyone care
what I think? Who sets themselves up
above to judge me from a chair in
the sky like an asshole? What's
that about? Anyway